Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)
It is caused by killing another human species who was no threat to you, friends or family.
Upon realizing this, add to this our modern weaponry. The missles, the bombs and the bullets, they whip like lightening and rumble like the thunder as if the voice of God, it raddles your concience and damages your soul. For the rest of your life you will suffer.
If you killed only to protect yourself or your buddy, you’ll probebly be ok.
In the military you are trained to kill or die and don’t ask why. And if you can convince yourself that you’re fighting for freedom; you’re fighting for your country, you might survive. As soon as you discover that this is a bunch of crap, it’s time to come home anyway you can, because you may not survive.
How do I know this, I don’t know, I just dreampt about this all night long last night. Why does this bother me so much while others don’t even bother to think about it. I don’t know.
While I have never served in the battle field, I have served with many battlefield veterans and somehow I am connected and don’t know why.
